- One Month Semester Break -

Final exams finally over for this semester. Relief but sad. Happy but disappointed. Yeah I'm contradicting myself everytime. It's not good isn't it? First paper, i knew i was doing the question smoothly last Monday. Sitting down and confidently doing question by question. But it end up quite disappointed. I don't know what happened. I lost focus and i got two questions for my careless mistake for easy question. I don't know why. Hope i will pass the unit.

Second paper, three days ago. It was ok. I'm not disappointed in any way but still, everytime when i finish the paper, my heart will always said "I could have done better". Yeah everyone says that. Including today's paper. I don't know why. I keep telling myself Advanced Process Simulation is not that hard. Just focus and you'll be fine. Yeah, i am fine. Of course, i was shutting myself up in the room the whole afternoon, suffocating myself till the end of time, until i started to write a blog entry. Don't worry, i'm not writing a death note or anything. I'm still alive here.

Anyway, semester break starts early for me, which is today. Haven had plan yet what to do specifically but i'll keep u guys updated. I'm not updated myself. Just need to gear up myself for the upcoming plans. To start, exams results coming out mid month next month, which is couple of days after coming back from my kl trip. Oh ya, I'm going to kl in two weeks time. Hehe... surprise??? not really... 3rd of July, that's the day i'm going off. Which means i'm not going back to Kuching, which means i'm staying here in Miri, which means..... a lot. nah. not that memorable anyway. Miri. Just wanna spend my final year here. Right. Talking about Kl trip again, we have to plan for the places that we wanna go and those kind of stuff. hopefully everything goes well.

Miri, the land of the seahorse. Yeah gonna be here for one month. maybe i'll go home. Maybe i'm not. Well, what can i do here beside doing my final year project. I can borrow car from someone though. Anyone wanna leave their car here in Miri and need someone to take care of it? See i bold and italic it somemore. i'm not kidding. I need a car just for one month is good enough for me. in return one full tank of fuel when i return ur car with a car wash. Deal??? That's good enough i guess. Now plans for holiday. I might be looking for work. part time job is good enough to earn some income. hmmmm.. not sure where yet but any suggestion? My mind is full of Coffee Bean. i'm not about that but i like cofffee. Maybe I'll let myself to try it out. See when will i go and call them up or just let myself in (called Sendiri walk in interview, lol).

Anyway, fun just started and i need to get ready to party tonight. Someone birthday is coming up tomorrow and oh... Tomorrow is Dumpling Festival. Need to find good dumpling tomorrow. party in Audrey's house tomorrow and ah...don't think lots of ppls will read my blog anyway. Need to make an initiative for my holiday's plan. Better still start tomorrow. Haha...

Anywhere, i got to go. I'll see u when i see u again, sometimes, somehow.

Cheerz~!!!

- Rainy Night -

- 1230am -

Tossing and turning.

- 1245 am -

Still Tossing and turning. Second paper is less than 12 hours. What am i still thinking about?

3 hours ago...
www.google.com/ig. Yes. This is my so called google organizer. I have "Pacman" and "Bejeweled" for my leisure. But this isn't the suitable time to play. Callwave, situated right in the middle of the column. "+8...", no one to sms to. Garfield was situated at the first column in second row. Right where i wanted it to be. Jokes of the day, third column second row. Start Pacmaning again.....

- 1247 am -
Left and right. Left - my white tower. Glowing. Pale light shown from the window. Within seconds, "tik tok, tik, tok...". It started to rain. At first it was droplets. Then again, it rains heavily within minutes. Looking at the pale white monitor. Orange LED shinning. Eyes switch towards the ceiling fan. Impelling anti-clockwise with a little wind. Cold. Abruptly switching off the fan. Back to my bed. Wondering... how long will i have to dream about it? Every night. Having the same dreams over and over everynight. Is this what makes me lose concentration in my studies. Is this not? Or is it some other things that have been bothering me. It could have been it. Imagination could bring certain consequences. Senses fix reality. My aunt once told me that her sixth sense comply with her life. It's very exact somehow. Couldn't explain it. I've experience it when i'm with her. I've seen it happened.

It's been 10 years since my granpa past away. Heart attack. Runs in the family. couldn't believe that i never see the last of him. Not even remembered when is the last time i've talked to him before i went back to Limbang to start my studies again. It was a phone called that makes everyone sad, grief and the feeling of couldn't believe it happened. It was the phone called that changes everything.

The fan turns again. Another chapter in my life. Exactly one year ago. It's the same time, things that had happened and what i've remembered. Proper arrangement and the exams was just around the corner. Trying my best to give the best of Luck to u.

And i felt asleep. Burying deep my memories of a sober.

Thinking...

Mixing the thoughts in my mind.

Like a blender making it equilibrium, mixed well.

- 505 am -
Gosh. The rain woke me up. Unbelievable. The piece of paper i'm holding 5 hours ago is on the table now. Look at the time on my mobile phone. 10 minutes past 5 am. Still holding it tight and sleeps back.

- 7 am -
Wide awake. Housemate awake. Toilet flushing. Sitting down the table and start revising once again.

- 6 pm -
Cooking. Ladies finger, baked bean and rice. Simple meal for the day.

- 9 pm -
Listening to Chris Doughtry's Home until i repeat my dreams once again.

Cheerz~!!!

- 9:10 pm -

Thinking of what alphabets to key and construct sentences...

Thinking of what should i write in a second...

Thinking of whether to study for my Monday exams later...

Thinking... Thinking...

Finally.

I had my dinner couple hours ago. It wasn't a satisfied dinner for me. It wasn't at all.

Two hours ago...

"Oh yeah, I'll order that later, the chao fan with the egg and ji pa...".
Haha.. not sure what to eat. Pau and me walk to Eng Xin juz now to have dinner. I wasn't worry at that time. i was preparing for my exam on Monday.

Pau's phone rang... "yeah, wait a sec, James want to talk to u" .

"What the, this is sweet and sour chicken le.. not that chao fan with egg plus ji pa le.... ".... "weird, I'm not sure how does the food looks like anywhere".

Still I don't know whether it's the right thing to do. All of the sudden, i can't think of anything.

"Bee---P, Beeeee-P"... "From: Catherine. What is the pendrive color? How many gb? Explain in details. I will help u 2 ask around."

Ah... here's my Butter Fish rice. Right.. Darn.. No... what the!?!?!?!??! Bugs.. i just hate them. Why do they have to fly around and contaminate my food? Do they have other thing to do except suicide at night??? Haiz....

"Hey, Pau. Do u think those chicken wings nice?", "Not sure, Lets find out".

"Ummm.... Not too bad.... Just that it's a little dry. I bet the guy put honey on it too."

Half pass nine...

Can't stop looking at the clock ticking. Funny. I just post a blog. Father's day is not here until the next 2 weeks and after that i finish my exams. I know. It's a hard thing to do. All i can say is that, I'll try to do my Final year Project in the semester break. I don't guarantee that i'll do it, but hope things will go smoothly. People always ask me, "U don't miss ur family meh?", "How come u are not homesick?", or "Ur parents won't miss u de meh??". Right. As a matter of fact, i'm not going home. I'm just gonna stay here till the end of the year. Final semester is juz around the corner. It's just end of next month.... It's just too early for me to think about it course i haven sit for the exams yet for this semester. First paper, Advance Process Control, Advance Separation and Advance Process Simulation. It's all advance. what can i say. I'm in Final year and i just finish my Semester 1 Final year report and submitted to Dr. Yudi.

Break??? no way... i'll be continue to kill my brain cell in a while. Just let me finish my last sentence. All the best in to all the Curtin Students in their Final Exams.

Cheerz~!! =)

- What makes a DAD -

- What Makes a Dad -

God took the strength of a mountain,
The majesty of a tree,
The warmth of a summer sun,
The calm of a quiet sea,
The generous soul of a nature,
The comforting arm of night,
The wisdom of the ages,
The power of the eagle's flight,
The joy of a morning in spring,
The faith of a mustard seed,
The patience of eternity,
The depth of a family need,
Then God combined these qualities,
When there was nothing more to add,
He knew his masterpiece was complete,
And so, He called it - Dad.

Cheerz~!!! =)