- カイ is Unspeakable -

I'm gonna make this fast. 

Damn it. I knew this stupid karma thingy will bite me in the @ss. Yes. It's been a hell week for the pass days. Seeing my colleagues one by one fell sick and I am suppose to work with them 24/7. Right where it all started. Believe it or not, for the past two days, I barely speak a word. Not even a full sentence. I was trying to avoid conversation and do whatever is best. Yet, I cannot do it because there's a big event going on and I'm directly involve in it. 

Say, what will you do if you lost your for more than 2 days now? I'm gonna just do texting and more texting...

See. I've told you that I'm gonna make this fast. 

カイ

- カイ is Sick -

Horrible. It started off after lunch on Friday, right after I ate the "Cha kueh tiaw". Not sure whether it's that piece of meal that makes my facial expression horrible now or something else. 

Till now, I still tell my friends that I'm recovering thought I am no way to the recovery. I am, otherwise to be said that I wasn't taking enough rest. It was until then I realize that I work without any compensation. How so? Beats me. I do not want to tell. 

Eating medicine nowadays is like popping illegal pills. It becomes a habit as my nostrils are becoming too sensitive towards dust, weather and other elements of life that can bring me to this stage. Serious, I'm on "Clarinase" almost every week. Is my antibody that week? Am I consider those people who will pop pills no matter what? or I really need to seek specialize advice on my condition. 

I remember when I was younger, less than 10 years old. I always get sick and the point here is that popping pills into my mouth is equal to vomit out... Disgusting when I think back. My parents on the other hand will try their best to pop it into my mouth by using pressing the medicine in to powder form, plus milo usually, and ask me to swallow it no matter what. Talking about phobia, I'll like to talk about one of my earliest phobia when travelling. 

Not to brag about all the sickness makes Ian a dull boy. People, weather change drastically, without any siren or signal. One day I would have knock my head and face down and not getting up anymore. Touch wood. 

I hope i'm getting better soon to join the Earth Hour Next Saturday. Do beep me if you are in Kuching. Anyone! 

カイ

- カイ Chill out -

It's Friday of course. I realize that time pass without my acknowledgement. Have been working none stop, getting frustrated with my sleeping disorder, routine exclamation and judgement that need to be reclaim. 

Couple of times I have tell myself that comparing with the so call good friend of mind is not going to help nor does it, base on certain circumstances. It doesn't matter I think. A friend once told me that we all have our own problems in life whether it is family, friendship, relationship or even companionship. 

Maintaining this life sux! big time. I heard that many people would have their own saying when it comes to lunch, dinner, supper and late night party. It's a preferences you see. Alright, still don't get me do you? Say, when we saw something peculiar or extremely interested in, we would just think about it a while, whether to get it or not. Like wise, not everyone would do the same thing. Especially dealing with such magnificent items which can cure your cancer or a simple disease called "flu". 

On the contrary, nothing beats the heck out of the rating of the movie I'm going to watch. Predict that I'm organizing the worst movie outing again. Seriously, how many movies this year till now, have you rated the best so far! Boom Boom Pow after that? 

Oh well, I'll be still walking through the soil of this world. Ending with lots of emptiness and time. Waste of time. Shoot! Can't I get something out of my mind so that I can really enjoying something I like to do? Seriously again, do you ever do something you like and be inspired by it? Longing and hoping that it would not end. A dream of yours, a goal that you would achieve in say 5 years, a loads that only weigh like a feather, and .... 

Be not the one I am now.

カイ

p/s: still don't get me right?

- カイ on Exam -

 カイ is having a post traumatic Exams.

Thinking of whether I can pass this test after taking it for the third time.

I hope I won't screw up.

What is your most unforgettable exam you have been through?

- カイ  -

カイ 's Concern

I was going off from work around 8pm just now. As usual, dark parking lots with only 2 streets light.

Reach down my keys and ignites the car engine.

Remember that I have take away 4 pieces of bread sticks from Pizza Hut.

When I was about to reach for my first, I was divert into the car two parking lots away.

Looking curiously within the dark parking lots, It was my colleague.

Her head was down on the steering wheel.

Abruptly, stop my engines and walk out the door.

While walking towards the car, I saw her gripping hard on a tissue paper, probably wet.

Instantly, I knock on her car window and she wined down a quarter.

Asking meticulously on her situation at the moment, It was hard to extinguish the element of sadness.

Yet so humble and convincing.

Look upon the very sad face remind me of my younger days.

The wind whisper into my ears, knowing that I might be taking advantage of the cool yet comfortable reminiscence...

While bidding the last farewell for the day, it was consciously being deluded into the same stead.

Like wise, another dark hours is ending soon,

Won't be surprise if this is a nocturnal habit for some...

- カイ -

Go Green with カイ

The day when I flew in, I knew there's something about the evening that makes all these pictures different from the usual. It all comes down to whether we have the courage to bring it on. I would suggest that's the best way to handle the momentum of the tantrum is to face it with courage and constant vigilant.

Like wise, It won't happened... 

I'm back. 

Not because I want to, because of choices that I've made.

- カイ -